I did attend three Problem Gambling Support Group meetings a week so I have replaced one of them with the new group, I also have a weekly catch up with my Sponsees via Zoom and I attended my first SMART Recovery meeting on Friday night via Zoom. I really enjoyed it and hope to make it a regular Friday thing for myself. That’s why the first line of my blog has changed. I have removed the fact I am a compulsive gambler because the label, I feel, is unnecessary. Now that’s not to say I’m cured or anything, it’s just factual that I am not a compulsive gambler anymore, I am in recovery. Am I an addict? I believe so and it is my opinion I will always be an addict and I need to maintain my recovery for the rest of my life.
I also removed my bet date because I don’t say it in meetings so I don’t see why I am saying it here. If it ever changes I’ll be sure to write about it but it remains April 2nd 2019. I don’t get too hung up on my date to be honest. Yes, milestones are amazing and I like to celebrate them in my own way and I love celebrating other people's milestones but the only thing that is important to me is getting through today. It’s all about the journey and there is no destination and if this journey is going to be for life, well, I don’t feel the need to focus on my last bet date when sharing. It doesn’t bring anything to the table for me or others. When I first went to G.A. I immediately listened to those with longer in the program (maybe I guessed that those with longer would be older as well but don’t tell them) because I assumed that they would know best but over time I realised it doesn’t matter how long someone has been in the program, everyone has something to offer me if I actively listen. Also, with what has happened recently, I realise that those with years in the program aren’t always the ones I should be looking to for guidance as they have their own issues and defects, some more than others.
So yea, it’s been a frantic start to May and change can always be a scary thing at first and I’ll be totally honest, when the stuff happened with my Sponsor it did get to me. Luckily, I knew what I needed to do. I reached out to those I knew I could trust and talked about it. It took a few days but I got over it and began to look to the future. I saw this as an exciting new opportunity in my recovery to go on an adventure and sample the various delights in the recovery world. I have always said that there is no one size fits all approach to recovery and I am open to new ideas and thought processes and I will build the bespoke recovery program that works for me.
So, onto the actual blog post which is going to be based around SMART Recovery and one of their tools called the Hierarchy of Values (HOV). Now, before I get to that, what exactly is SMART Recovery? According to the SMART Recovery Handbook (which you can purchase here for UK folks and here for North America);
What is SMART?
SMART Recovery started in 1994. SMART, an acronym for Self-Management and Recovery Training, emphasises “self” - your role in your own recovery. We’re a nonprofit, science-based program that helps people recover from addictive behaviours.
Whether your addictive behaviour involves substances - alcohol, smoking, or drugs - or behaviours - gambling, sex, eating, shopping or self-harm - SMART can help. We understand the work ahead of you. No matter what your addictive behaviour, you’re not alone.
So instead of Steps like G.A. SMART has The 4-Point Programme. The fours points are:
1 - Building and Maintaining Motivation
2 - Coping with Urges
3 - Managing Thoughts, Feelings, and Behaviours
4 - Living a Balanced Life
SMART says these are not sequential for some people but I bought the handbook and I am going to get my money's worth out of it and work through it all. The handbook is a really good resource and I would recommend it to anyone who is interested in other ways to potentially improve their recovery. So now onto the Hierarchy Of Values and you can get this worksheet below from here.
HIERARCHY OF VALUES
From the work of Joe Gerstein, MD
(As written by Lorie Hammerstrom and Jim Braastad)
Joe Gerstein, a very generous man who was a major player in the founding of SMART Recovery®, served as its first President and a long-time member of the Board of Directors has a great little tool that he has used with people in the SMART Recovery® meetings he’s facilitated. It’s called the “Hierarchy of Values, and goes something like this:
Take a few minutes or so and make a list of the things that are important to you. Once that is completed, pick out the five things that you would place at the very top of the list—the five things that are MOST important to you. There is no "right" or "wrong" answers, as these are the things that are most important to YOU!
(NOTE: If you haven't already done so, please take the time to create your own “Top Five” list before you read on. This exercise will have more meaning and a greater impact if you take the time to determine and write out your “Top Five” before continuing.)
(I used questions 1 and 2 from here to answer A and then used question 3 to answer B)
Hierarchy of Values Worksheet
Complete this worksheet to determine what is MOST important to YOU.
Effectively used for which of the 4 points? Building Motivation
Take a few minutes or so and write down a list of things that are important to you:
Family, Appreciation, Encouragement, Health, Kindness, Love, Passion, Quality,Relationships
Responsibility, Simplicity, Thankfulness, Thoughtfulness, Usefulness, Well-Being.
Friendships, Contribution, Credibility, Dependability, Loyalty, Reliability, Teamwork, Trustworthiness.
Recovery, Acceptance, Accountability, Benevolence, Calmness, Caring, Challenge, Commitment, Compassion, Dedication, Empathy, Fairness, Honesty, Humility, Mindfulness, Open-Mindedness, Optimism, Self-Control, Understanding.
Humour, Cheerfulness, Enthusiasm, Fun, Happiness, Individuality, Joy, Originality, Playfulness, Uniqueness, Warmth.
Personal Development, Advancement, Ambition, Consistency, Flexibility, Growth, Knowledge, Learning, Motivation, Resourcefulness, Success, Versatility, Vision, Wisdom.
From the list above, look through and choose those that you consider to be your “Top Five”…the five things you consider to be the MOST IMPORTANT to you (in no particular order):
- Personal Development
What’s missing? Is it missing from your list as well? What Joe has noticed is how rarely people put alcohol (or whatever other substance or maladaptive behaviour) in the list of the things that they deem “most important” to them. Yet often their actions would suggest otherwise… that it was the most important thing in their lives!
When we sit down and really think about what we value most in our lives, it's (most likely) safe to say that our DOC (drug of choice) isn’t one of them. Yet every time that we use, we are placing those things in jeopardy; we are gambling with the things that we treasure and hold dear, putting them at risk with the potential of losing them.
So effectively, when we choose (and yes, it IS a choice) to drink or drug (or whatever other maladaptive behaviour), we are choosing that over the things we value most! Even if that choice is made mindlessly or without thought, it doesn't change anything—our DOC is being chosen over what we deem to be most important!
That was quite eye opening for me as I didn’t realise how many values I actually have now and that is down to recovery. When I was gambling, it was the top priority for me over everything listed above. To be honest, half of those things wouldn’t have been on my Hierarchy Of Values if I had done this when gambling. It would have just been gambling and me as those were the only things I cared about. Working that tool has made me realise what I would be throwing away if I went back to gambling but it also helped me see how far I have come already in my journey. I am looking forward to using more of the tools from SMART Recovery and I will be sure to write about them.